ANDA TERLALU MENGANGGAP DIRI ANDA HEBAT

Anda terlalu menganggap diri anda hebat sampai-sampai anda lupa bahwasanya saya pun sehebat anda. Biarlah saya dibilang arogan, saya cuma tidak ingin anda menginjak-injak saya, padahal saya yang harusnya menginjak perkataan anda (yang walaupun harusnya adalah teman saya) yang telah membuat saya sedikit muak. Selama ini saya cukup tahan, dan sampai sekarang pun tahan dengan berpura-pura menghiraukan ocehan anda yang makin lama terdengar seperti mutan kaktus yang bisa bicara. Pernah anda dengan riuh mengulang perkataan saya penuh penghinaan ketika saya dapat memahami teks tentang nebula dan anti-materi sementara anda tidak, namun anda memang selalu menganggap saya tidak hebat. Kenyataannya bahkan intelijensi anda tak ada separuh intelijensi saya. Biarlah saya dibilang sombong, saya hanya tidak ingin anda jatuh terlalu dalam ke dalam penyesalan kelak ketika anda sadar intelijensi anda tak mampu meluluskan anda dari sebuah instistusi. Saya tidak peduli saya dibilang pendendam karena faktanya dendam saya inilah yang akan menyelamatkan anda dari rasa sakit terhina. Anda pernah menolak sebuah rekomendasi saya dan menghinanya sementara anda tidak tahu apa artinya, dalam hati saya tertawa, tapi saya tidak ingin mengingatkan kebodohan anda saat itu juga. Saya benar-benar menanti saat yang tepat untuk menyadarkan anda, yaitu saat anda jatuh terkapar sekarat oleh rendahnya intelijensi anda yang tidak diimbangi dengan sikap sadar diri. Anda terlalu pongah sebagai teman, dan saya sebagai teman anda tidak akan menjadikan anda teman yang lengkap sebelum anda lihat sendiri apa yang akan saya capai. Semoga anda cepat terjatuh karena saat itulah saya akan menyadarkan anda dari keterpurukan mentalitas anda.

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You always consider yourself to be too great to the point that you forget that I was as good as you. Let me say I am arrogant, I just don't want you to trample me, when I was supposed to step on your words (although you ARE my friend) which has made me a little sick. During this time I quite persist, and even now I still persist by pretending to ignore your twaddles who increasingly sound like a talking mutant cactus. You had ever repeated my words boisterously which such disdain when I could understand the text of the nebula and anti-material substance while you couldn't, but you've always thought I was not great. In fact you don't have intelligence even a half of mine. Let me say I am arrogant, I just don't want you to fall too deep into remorse later when you realize that your intelligence can't afford you to pass the institution. I don't care if anybody called me vindictive because in fact my revenge is the only thing that can save you from the pain of being humiliated. You ever rejected a recommendation from me and insulted me while you don't know what that means, in my heart I laughed, but I didn't want to remind you about your foolishness at that time. I really wait for the right moment to bring you, when you lay dying because of your low intelligence which doesn't matched with your self-consciousness. You are too arrogant to be a friend, and I, as your friend won't make you a complete friend before you see what I will accomplish. May you quickly fall because by the time I will force you to realize about your descent mentality.

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¡BUENAVENTURA, AMIGO!

SCRAWLIN' TO AN OLD MATEY #1

Whether you realize or not, you've become a person in my life who completely turned me. Whether you realize or not, your short existence, your defensive opinions, your attentions on what I was telling, your birthday call; they resound in my ears always everywhere but sure they won't bring you back. You weren't lost, but I can't find you anywhere, you are gone while I still see you.

Sometimes, I remember about that story. The outline of ours HAHAHA. If you read this I ask you, d'you remember this? It was 2008, and we were still young. I was a Senior high student, so was you. Mine is a public, and yours is a private with no boy inside. And it was a Friendster's miracle then we finally met. I admire you from a band's myspace picture showing a girl wearing that band's tees --and it was you there. Then miraculously I found your Friendster profile and added you as my friend. Soon you approved my Friendster account and I commented on your profile as soon. I said things in English yet you felt annoyed. So I turned out the line as well :) --> see picture 1

Times ticked so fast, and I had known you well from conversations in Y!M with your old account. We're telling lots of stories we didn't know how and why. You were a Cybermate for me. Til one day I broke up with my ex, you did care to me (in my opinion) but sure I was lifted so high :) --> see picture 2

Even though, someone was jealous to you (this is madness!) I kept on having conversations with you. One thing I always remember is: You once called me 'SERIGALA'. --> see picture 3

Lost in contact with you for few months, I found you once more. The era was changing, Friendster had become an old stuff, everyone used Facebook, so was I, so were you. And I found you again on facebook with your phone number for me to call :p I contacted you by text message and sometimes we're replying message (although it wasn't too often). That's the best record of us ever.

MY 17th BIRTHDAY PERIOD --> you were the first person who said 'happy birthday' to me, and I was impressed. And the time around my birthday was my greatest time with your companion. I met you for the first time, on McD behind your school. We had a long conversation there, I borrowed your excercises, and I told you a lot of things.

THE TRAGEDY --> it happened and separated me from you til now.

hey if you read this, i tell you, that was bot my intention we have been like this. If there's a logic apology, please do me a favor to forgive me.

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REGARDS,


Paskalis Damar

ADMIRINGSKIES #1

They are, yes they are diamonds. I'm an admirer. If anybody knew, how can they tell everything to the entire world without remorse or else, I just can't imagine if I were 'em. Can I keep going like that? Or should I stay on the line? I don't think I am mature enough to try to think about that. I'm crying just to listen to an untitled song, which reminds me to a world without stars, without any nebula which always keeps me wondering, how the sun exist while his mother doesn't even exist. I'm not crying for something that doesn't affect me, I cry only for things that breaks when I'm broke, though the essence of broken for me doesn't determine anything but a state of being ready-to-rebuild. Back to the diamonds, the shines so terribly bright like a solitary cloud, yes. I wanna remind them that I'm expecting one of them to be the first star on the galaxy where the star is only dream. I am an astronaut, I've been stranded on this space all my life and still I enjoy admiring the skies. I hope they know why.